Friday, September 30, 2011

Starting to become REAL

We received THIS on Tuesday:

Our license for foster care! If we wanted to, we could get a call today! But we won't because we requested to be activated on November 1st so that we can get through our vacation, etc.

It seemed like such a long journey to get to this point and at times didn't seem like we would ever really get to here, but we made it! Of course, our work is not done...and never will be as long as we are fostering. I discovered that our home will be inspected every quarter unless we have children in our home and then it will be every month. Of course, then there's the 20 hours of annual training as well. But we'll bask in the time-being that we made it to this milestone and the fact that Buckner deems us worthy of such an important role.

I'm starting to have some panic moments. Originally, we were counting on one child, with two being the exception. However, we were told that with being open to two, that this was huge, so now we know that two is more likely and one will be the exception. TWO? Can I handle two?? Heck, can I handle one? I'm realizing how little I know. I've been trying to read and read, but the stack just gets taller rather than smaller. We have to come up with a daily schedule for their week. I don't know what we are going to do from day to day!

We don't have anything! No sippy cups, bottles, clothes...hard to buy stuff when you don't know what you are getting! Yes, we will get these things once they are here, but I am overwhelmed with all of the THINGS we will need to get.

I read a blog of someone talking about how her mom leaving after being there for 10 days to help out with the newborn baby. I'm not going to have that! I'm going to be all alone, left to care for children I know nothing about!

Don't get me wrong, I am so so excited, but for some reason getting that piece of paper handed to me put the 'scary' in overdrive for me.


Mikki said...

You are not alone!! I can help at anytime you need it and you will have a great support network!! Plan on Thursdays being park day. You can come hang out with our group at the park! ;) Depending on the age of your kiddoe/s, Monday there is a gymnastics class from 2:30 to 3:30 for 18 mths (or 2) and up. We can get together more throughout the week if you would like. The kids can play and we can hang out and talk our "issues" through! You will do great!

Mamalion Kara said...

You are not alone! God knows your heart for these "invisible" children and he will carry you through some amazing journeys. When you get a call you need to contact several people to help you through the first few days. I used to put
"incoming" on my FB page. Those who knew....called immediately, those who didn't thought I was crazy. At that point let your friends help you with the details! We have been there and done that and can scramble to get you some of the things you need to keep you from having to spend too much money. Ask the placing caseworker who to contact regarding $ for a new placement. Usually, NOT always the placing county will have an amount of money you can use. I didn't find this out until we had been foster parents for a while! Oh boy! Excited for you and excited for what God will do!